This isn’t a very positive post for me which is unusual as I’m not really an unhappy person but in the last few weeks I have realised that I haven’t got time for people who don’t give anything back, or go out of their way to give a negative.
I have always been a bit of a doormat. To the point that during secondary school I was bullied really badly. I didn’t tell anyone and even got sent death threats. I didn’t want to say anything to anyone as I thought it would just go away. The girl who bullied me had never even spoken to me in her life and only shared a 20 minute bus journey with me twice a day.
Getting back to the point… if you say something I don’t like it’s unlikely I will tell you or snap back. Instead it will just hurt me and give me anxiety. To the point where I will worry about it for nights on end.
I am unfortunately getting fed up of this and wish I was better at confrontation or could do it at all.
People always use pregnancy to give you your opinion about everything known to man and this one hasn’t been any different. I’m just spending my life staring at people thinking “did I even ask your opinion?” Nope! No I didn’t! You asked a question, I answered but I didn’t ask your opinion on my answer.
I don’t know why people use pregnancy as a time to give their opinion about everything- especially when most mums are petrified of getting everything right, let alone be judged on it.
It’s infuriating. What does it matter to anyone? Does it affect your life what size I am? What I have done already prior to my due date or my name choice? No? Well don’t say anything then. It’s not kind and it’s just upsetting.
You also realise as you get older that people who don’t bother with you or judge you aren’t worth it. I have lost friends, people move away but if your true friends they appreciate you for who you are, and keep in contact or are there when you need them.
I am so thankful to these friends who are there for me when I need them and I am there for them. But if you don’t bother with me I’m not going to be that person who spends my life bothering with you. I don’t have time. My main priority is Matt, Erin and Bubs.
Friendship is a two way street, I will always be there for you and nice to you if you can do the same for me.
Note- hormones are probably to blame for 90% of this post!!!