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Timehop- the Curse of memories

Timehop…. every morning I get my little notification- ‘you made memories today’.

As you open the app there’s one of two things, either beautiful pics of a podgy little Erin or memories which make things a little harder to swallow.

One thing that stands out is that Timehop doesn’t just include pics that you post online- including the horrendously cheesy Facebook statuses that you thought were cool 8 years ago, it now includes pics you take on your phone.

One thing that struck me today was me taking pictures of my tummy and sending them to Matt.. exactly a year ago… two weeks into my first round of IVF. Looking at all my symptoms and assuming that I was pregnant.

It actually turned out to be Ovarian Hyper-stimulation. All the symptoms the same as the first symptoms of pregnancy. Weight gain, enlarged breasts, feeling tired and sick.

Little did I know this would be the start of my 5 days in hospital on drips, being sick, not being able to wee, needing blood transfusions and being away from Erin.

The worst week of my life, I had never felt so ill in my life, concerned about Erin and she start of a bout of panic attacks. Even worse it was when I realised that actually there would be no pregnancy. I would have to go through the whole thing again.

The second round of IVF, the money, the hurt, the anxiety. I can’t even imagine the pain of people who have to continue to go through the pain of several attempts with no light at the end of the tunnel.

I was so lucky that after another two attempts I was blessed with my beautiful baby girl, who is nearly ready to make her appearance into the world.

When’s our sit and remember memories, does it help, does it make them easier to swallow or should you just forget?

Do you love Timehop or is it a mix of bad memories for you too?